A few days ago I was straining myself to feel content with where I am in this process of finding out where I am meant to be concerning my career. It has been an interesting process working in a job where I deal with a lot of customers who are far from content with where they are in life, and often show it through frustration and impatience while feeling rushed to get their coffee. In those moments of receiving their frustration, or witnessing it, I always feel a responsibility to pause, consider where they are coming from, and turn away from wanting to express my feelings of being wronged by them. However, I can't always shake the feeling that it should be different. People shouldn't be allowed to treat people in a rude, condescending, self righteous or disrespectful way- it's not excusable, it doesn't matter who you are or where you come from, your behavior is your responsibility, even if you really need coffee:).
Today there was another incident where I just thought to myself, why is it that the people that are the loudest, pushy or most demanding, often get the reward of what they want? Or perhaps someone who just yelled at you felt justified to do so, because they were previously yelled at. I'm sure I'm not alone in feeling or noticing the decline of respect and consideration, but as a Christian how are we supposed to handle these situations?
As I was on my way to work a few days ago, while listening to the radio, a man called in and said something that has really resonated with me. He was explaining how he was infuriated by road rage, angry and wanted to react but didn't due to trying to set a good example for his kids and get to church safely. Once they arrived at church, he started to relax a bit, but couldn't shake his rage about what had happened. As the sermon started, he realized the pastor was talking about Christians being set apart and the difficulty of living in this world and not being of this world. The pastor went on to say that the struggle in this life is continual due to us being apart of the fallen race, and our flesh flares up in times of pride, which triggers our fallen self. Only when we realize the fight is no longer ours, (that when Christ died on the cross, He alone removed the weight of responsibility of having to earn our freedom in Christ, from being saved solely by our abilities) can we separate our-self from being pulled down and included in the world's view of sanctification.
The pastor then gave a visual (may not be exactly word for word, but what I got from the description) Imagine a bottle used to scoop up water from the ocean. While scooping some water, sand got into the bottle and started to settle at the bottom, eventually becoming separated, completely settled- a lot like when we trust in God and give our lives to Him we are at peace and are trusting Him to control the details and interactions in our lives. However, when we loose focus, and allow our self to get caught in becoming riled up because something is not as we would like it, we are shaken and stirred. We become discontent and things become foggy and distressed, much like a bottle of water and sand shaken up, we lose clarity.
I don't know why this resonated so well with me, but it gave me peace and helped me to remove how I felt about heading into a job that I am not necessarily passionate about, (besides the coffee, that is) and the stress of waiting to hear about potential career opportunities and then reminded me that I have a God who is faithful, one who has plans to prosper me, not to harm me...and that this job, is a job that is apart of his plan. Theses people are apart of his plan, and I am in the process of being refined in a loving process. I am thankful for the struggle, that it is not up to me and the blessing of living in a place where I can reflect on God's love freely and hear from people of faith share their wisdom. During my shift, I received a text from a past manager, who informed me that there were two inquiries from a district I had just applied to, asking for a reference for me, from him. I have yet to hear anything but feel blessed and joyful that this is a possibility. If not, I know God has something good in store, made just for me and my refinement.
I read later that night a devotional called, Ending Your Day Right, by Joyce Meyers. The devotional reflected the earlier message I heard on the radio, and the only thing I can say, is that it gave me so much joy. The last line of her devotional for that night said, when ever you are feeling uncertain or down, just focus on and say this mantra, "God has something good for me today".
Although I still get "shaken up, I know that God has something in the works and I feel more reassured than ever that God has something good for us!
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
Thursday, August 8, 2013
Living Life Fully Alive...
Over the past two weeks I feel like there have been moments of great joy and hope along with some dire times of concern and anxiousness. I have taken some time to process what it is to be successful, happy, and purposeful with my life. I believe that Chau and I have taken the first step toward what we want for our lives and the quality of life that we strive to incorporate daily. So far, despite the lack of a full time job for me, we have felt completely at peace with our decision to move up here and explore a new area, and rediscover who we are as a couple. We have been blessed with family visiting, friends staying with us, visiting and planning trips up here, as well as, rediscovering old friendships that are now blossoming into regular meetings and purposeful investment in making our community up here.
Don't get me wrong, we definitely miss our community at home, greatly! And are thankful that we have your prayers, support and love consistently. I thank God that you are all in our lives and still consider us dear friends despite the distance. I take comfort in the thought of reaching out or receiving calls where we can pick up right where we left off. And for those where life continues to consume our time, know that I will always see our friendship as purposeful in my life and look forward to connect soon!
Now, in the last two weeks, We have both experienced the uncertainty of being far away from family when crisis takes place, learned and relearned God is in charge of our circumstances and will bless any situation, despite how we feel. Have questioned our place in this plan of God's master orchestration, and regrouped to find that what we think and pursue, can change in an instant.
The way I have come to see life (ever changing and developing) in the past two years is this... There are two (probably more) ways to function on a daily basis. One can live life in a safe environment, going with what works, makes people happy, allowing life to pass by with out tapping into the depth of who God has made them to be to the full extent, but still being content. Or, one can live life fully alive. This second option is a difficult one to achieve, because it takes risk, time, uncertainty and is scary, although I feel has personally brought me the purest joy. I am not saying one has to begrudgingly go sky diving, spelunking, or swim with the sharks after watching shark week, to live life fully alive (possibly until a dangerous end). What I am saying is God created us uniquely, to greatly impact each other in community. To work in an environment that suits you to make a difference naturally with the talents and gifts he has designed in you. Often times, I feel that our careers or social environmental norms are created by making generalizations-which become the norm in order to fulfill a quota. We no longer look for the natural gifts that make a difference for everyone involved, if engaged. More and more, I feel that encouragement is lacking in everyday communities that helps individuals differentiate what is unique about them, and therefore, would help them to pursue avenues that would help them flourish. I think we have to fight for ourselves as well as for others and what is good for life aligned with God. "Love your neighbor as yourself" (the second command in Matthew 22:38). How can we do this better, when we live in a world of people not seeing the value of who they are, or are bullying those around them due to their own insecurities. There is a lot more defensive living than offensive living these days. But ask yourself this, how refreshing is it when someone pays you a complement? Or helps you in someway, just out of kindness? How much more life do those acts of kindness and love breathe into your day? It fuels a fire deep within you to be purposeful or a desire to influence people's lives in a positive and uplifting way. It also restores faith in community, and therefore influences a movement to make this world a more loving place to be.
A few months ago, I was introduced to a friend of Chau's who selflessly helped me (with out knowing me) get into the sub pool in a desired district up here just by taking the step of telling me that it was accepting applications way back in November. Now, upon interviewing I spoke with a few other candidates who said they had been waiting and attempting to get into the sub pool for four plus years. I got in, which I have to say was an oddity because the amount of time to apply was less than a week. I thank God for that and know that he works through people to bless others. Another blessing was hearing from the same friend after finally meeting (and her throwing me a mini birthday party), that she thought we should hang out more often, and that she really liked me. I can not express how refreshing and touching it was to feel immediately accepted and encouraged by who I was naturally. I did not have to pretend, act a certain way or impress, I just was and I was told that I was liked. Why do we not do this naturally? Is it fear or pain? It can be hard to give from your heart, but I have to say I experienced pure joy and couldn't remember another time where after being met for the first time that I knew I was liked and accepted by someone who took the time and effort to just plainly say it, and not assume that I would know.
I know I have been blessed with good friends who are more like family, who protect and push for my success and I am ever grateful for each of you and all you have done. You have each helped to make me who I am now and will continue to influence me daily. We all need mirrors to see who we are and what we look like to others, I hope to be a good reflection for each of you. As well as, how you come to understand how I see you, to be a positive and uplifting experience. I pray that I come to those I meet as an accepting and loving person who is encouraging not judgmental. Nor that I be fearful of how I come across to the other person. Rather, to be a genuine person, encouraging them to be who God has made them, and not how others (including myself) would selfishly like them. All in all, I pray that we all take a step back from ourselves, and step toward uplifting someone besides us. You never know the importance of that connection, or the influence it can have on your community in which you live daily. Why live in a world of strangers, when you can live in a world full of friends?
Love you all,
Jess
Don't get me wrong, we definitely miss our community at home, greatly! And are thankful that we have your prayers, support and love consistently. I thank God that you are all in our lives and still consider us dear friends despite the distance. I take comfort in the thought of reaching out or receiving calls where we can pick up right where we left off. And for those where life continues to consume our time, know that I will always see our friendship as purposeful in my life and look forward to connect soon!
Now, in the last two weeks, We have both experienced the uncertainty of being far away from family when crisis takes place, learned and relearned God is in charge of our circumstances and will bless any situation, despite how we feel. Have questioned our place in this plan of God's master orchestration, and regrouped to find that what we think and pursue, can change in an instant.
The way I have come to see life (ever changing and developing) in the past two years is this... There are two (probably more) ways to function on a daily basis. One can live life in a safe environment, going with what works, makes people happy, allowing life to pass by with out tapping into the depth of who God has made them to be to the full extent, but still being content. Or, one can live life fully alive. This second option is a difficult one to achieve, because it takes risk, time, uncertainty and is scary, although I feel has personally brought me the purest joy. I am not saying one has to begrudgingly go sky diving, spelunking, or swim with the sharks after watching shark week, to live life fully alive (possibly until a dangerous end). What I am saying is God created us uniquely, to greatly impact each other in community. To work in an environment that suits you to make a difference naturally with the talents and gifts he has designed in you. Often times, I feel that our careers or social environmental norms are created by making generalizations-which become the norm in order to fulfill a quota. We no longer look for the natural gifts that make a difference for everyone involved, if engaged. More and more, I feel that encouragement is lacking in everyday communities that helps individuals differentiate what is unique about them, and therefore, would help them to pursue avenues that would help them flourish. I think we have to fight for ourselves as well as for others and what is good for life aligned with God. "Love your neighbor as yourself" (the second command in Matthew 22:38). How can we do this better, when we live in a world of people not seeing the value of who they are, or are bullying those around them due to their own insecurities. There is a lot more defensive living than offensive living these days. But ask yourself this, how refreshing is it when someone pays you a complement? Or helps you in someway, just out of kindness? How much more life do those acts of kindness and love breathe into your day? It fuels a fire deep within you to be purposeful or a desire to influence people's lives in a positive and uplifting way. It also restores faith in community, and therefore influences a movement to make this world a more loving place to be.
A few months ago, I was introduced to a friend of Chau's who selflessly helped me (with out knowing me) get into the sub pool in a desired district up here just by taking the step of telling me that it was accepting applications way back in November. Now, upon interviewing I spoke with a few other candidates who said they had been waiting and attempting to get into the sub pool for four plus years. I got in, which I have to say was an oddity because the amount of time to apply was less than a week. I thank God for that and know that he works through people to bless others. Another blessing was hearing from the same friend after finally meeting (and her throwing me a mini birthday party), that she thought we should hang out more often, and that she really liked me. I can not express how refreshing and touching it was to feel immediately accepted and encouraged by who I was naturally. I did not have to pretend, act a certain way or impress, I just was and I was told that I was liked. Why do we not do this naturally? Is it fear or pain? It can be hard to give from your heart, but I have to say I experienced pure joy and couldn't remember another time where after being met for the first time that I knew I was liked and accepted by someone who took the time and effort to just plainly say it, and not assume that I would know.
I know I have been blessed with good friends who are more like family, who protect and push for my success and I am ever grateful for each of you and all you have done. You have each helped to make me who I am now and will continue to influence me daily. We all need mirrors to see who we are and what we look like to others, I hope to be a good reflection for each of you. As well as, how you come to understand how I see you, to be a positive and uplifting experience. I pray that I come to those I meet as an accepting and loving person who is encouraging not judgmental. Nor that I be fearful of how I come across to the other person. Rather, to be a genuine person, encouraging them to be who God has made them, and not how others (including myself) would selfishly like them. All in all, I pray that we all take a step back from ourselves, and step toward uplifting someone besides us. You never know the importance of that connection, or the influence it can have on your community in which you live daily. Why live in a world of strangers, when you can live in a world full of friends?
Love you all,
Jess
Thursday, July 18, 2013
Cultivating Community
One of the most valuable words of wisdom that Chau and I received upon leaving Southern California, was to get planted in a church right away up in Portland to cultivate a community.
Growing up I have to say that I was surrounded by community. On a daily basis, I would run into someone I knew, grew up with, attended school with, someone who knew my mom, dad, brother, more specifically my mom from 2 weeks ago, a year ago, from college, high school, junior high, etc.; They may have had my grandma as a teacher, lived on the same block growing up, met in the grocery store- well you get the idea...I was well known through my family, and there was 2 degrees of separation rather than 6 (kevin Bacon was my next door neighbor.... J/K) To give you another idea, one time I was at work at a store in Upland, and a man came in and asked if I was Joanne's daughter...I did not know this man and he did not know my name, nor where I came from, but knew I looked like my mom- turns out he went to high school with her. All this to say, once in college, it was a weird thing to not be immersed in this interconnected community. I felt alienated in a way, which I am sure a lot of people go through this, but it was definitely a new challenge to feel like myself with out the huge network of people who knew so & so in my family.
I learned how to grow into myself, and find my own community, but again as time went by, friends left to move back home and before I knew it I was graduating and yet again looking for community.
When I met Chau there was a very different story with him and his experience with community. I met Chau and immediately became apart of his community- He has been very blessed since high school to have a solid group of people who have walked continually through life with him. I have seen how each person has invested and valued a friendship with him. This was a very blessed experience for me, because I truly believe this is what Jesus modeled for us to live life like. I desired this and was able to experience interaction like this with our church Life group and loved and valued every moment of it (I definitely miss it).
Presently, Chau and I are in the midst of redefining what Community is and where we should continue to seek. We are very thankful for having such a strong background reference of community, but also have some things to sort out as far as what this looks like in Portland. Has anyone struggled with this that has any tips or suggestions?I am not sure if people can actually respond to our blog, but if you can I would love some feedback on this, or you can email us @ both510@icloud.com ...Our main struggle (at least mine), is trying to let go of our last experience {as far as the expectations that it should be exactly same:)} and being patient to cultivate a healthy experience with new people. Prayers would be appreciated. Even though we are meeting people through work/ other people, it can be a lonely process not having a good Christian support group locally. I can totally identify with the Corinthian's need for Paul's letters and his need for their support now....Thanks for faithfully keeping up with us- you all definitely help us to know we are supported from afar!
Growing up I have to say that I was surrounded by community. On a daily basis, I would run into someone I knew, grew up with, attended school with, someone who knew my mom, dad, brother, more specifically my mom from 2 weeks ago, a year ago, from college, high school, junior high, etc.; They may have had my grandma as a teacher, lived on the same block growing up, met in the grocery store- well you get the idea...I was well known through my family, and there was 2 degrees of separation rather than 6 (kevin Bacon was my next door neighbor.... J/K) To give you another idea, one time I was at work at a store in Upland, and a man came in and asked if I was Joanne's daughter...I did not know this man and he did not know my name, nor where I came from, but knew I looked like my mom- turns out he went to high school with her. All this to say, once in college, it was a weird thing to not be immersed in this interconnected community. I felt alienated in a way, which I am sure a lot of people go through this, but it was definitely a new challenge to feel like myself with out the huge network of people who knew so & so in my family.
I learned how to grow into myself, and find my own community, but again as time went by, friends left to move back home and before I knew it I was graduating and yet again looking for community.
When I met Chau there was a very different story with him and his experience with community. I met Chau and immediately became apart of his community- He has been very blessed since high school to have a solid group of people who have walked continually through life with him. I have seen how each person has invested and valued a friendship with him. This was a very blessed experience for me, because I truly believe this is what Jesus modeled for us to live life like. I desired this and was able to experience interaction like this with our church Life group and loved and valued every moment of it (I definitely miss it).
Presently, Chau and I are in the midst of redefining what Community is and where we should continue to seek. We are very thankful for having such a strong background reference of community, but also have some things to sort out as far as what this looks like in Portland. Has anyone struggled with this that has any tips or suggestions?I am not sure if people can actually respond to our blog, but if you can I would love some feedback on this, or you can email us @ both510@icloud.com ...Our main struggle (at least mine), is trying to let go of our last experience {as far as the expectations that it should be exactly same:)} and being patient to cultivate a healthy experience with new people. Prayers would be appreciated. Even though we are meeting people through work/ other people, it can be a lonely process not having a good Christian support group locally. I can totally identify with the Corinthian's need for Paul's letters and his need for their support now....Thanks for faithfully keeping up with us- you all definitely help us to know we are supported from afar!
Thursday, July 11, 2013
Time is a funny thing...
It's been nice despite the job search, to be able to have time to slow down a bit, and go through a number of boxes that have needed to be sorted through for quite a while. Even though there has been more time for this, it seems as though time has flown by. We are going into our fourth month up here and I can't believe it. I never thought the transition of moving to a new area would be smooth, but I have to say, beside the job search pitfalls with me, this transition has been a good one, with still a lot to discover and experience.
I think the best part about this experience so far is seeing God's hand in our lives, relationship, friends and in His timing. We miss the comforts and familiarity of what was home to us for 29 years, our families, and friends, but have seen how God even provides little comforts or reminders of what we need and gives to us when we need it. We have also seen how our true hearted friends have been encouraging and supportive, while giving us grace in this major transition. It has been such a blessing to hear from them, and be encouraged!
One of the best blessings was to get to see some of you and my family two weeks ago, I guess it just makes us not feel so far away, when people you love come to visit! I look forward to many more friends and family coming through Portland, and for our trips down to Cali- to visit as well. I know that there will be stability soon, and Chau and I look forward to that day to be able to see our dreams come to life up here even more, or where ever God may lead us. :) Time will tell what it is that I am meant to pursue, same with Chau, and we are definitely excited to be walking with Him in this process, even if it seems like time feels slow but is actually passing quickly.
I think the best part about this experience so far is seeing God's hand in our lives, relationship, friends and in His timing. We miss the comforts and familiarity of what was home to us for 29 years, our families, and friends, but have seen how God even provides little comforts or reminders of what we need and gives to us when we need it. We have also seen how our true hearted friends have been encouraging and supportive, while giving us grace in this major transition. It has been such a blessing to hear from them, and be encouraged!
One of the best blessings was to get to see some of you and my family two weeks ago, I guess it just makes us not feel so far away, when people you love come to visit! I look forward to many more friends and family coming through Portland, and for our trips down to Cali- to visit as well. I know that there will be stability soon, and Chau and I look forward to that day to be able to see our dreams come to life up here even more, or where ever God may lead us. :) Time will tell what it is that I am meant to pursue, same with Chau, and we are definitely excited to be walking with Him in this process, even if it seems like time feels slow but is actually passing quickly.
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Life... full circle
I swear I will be better at writing this blog on a more consistent basis. I thought since I do not have a full time job yet, that it would be easier to fill my time with blogging. This has obviously not been the case and I will work on that!
As of now I have to say that the last two weeks have been filled with stress, joy and exhaustion. I loved being apart of my Cousin's wedding party, celebrating with her the new commitment she has been preparing for (for well over a year) finally come to fruition! Seeing my loving family and getting precious time after years of business, to sit down and spend it talking and updating.
STRESS: Is waiting to hear back multiple times for a job that I was looking forward to, getting the opportunity to go on a 4th interview (after two months of waiting) the day of the rehearsal of my cousin's wedding. Waiting again to hear back only to find out that they decided to go with someone else. Needless to say I am feeling a bit exhausted, but strangely still feeling joyful, and hopeful that we are heading in the right direction. Don't get me wrong, I am definitely disappointed and wish I knew the Why's of all the unknown reasons as to our current situation, but I am joyful that I have a husband who looks to God as knowing the reasons being good enough. As well as, that he encourages me to know that the disappointments in what we expect are not disappointments to God, rather it's a directive from God that he wants us somewhere else. For me I am not entirely sure where that is anymore (career wise). From my perspective, I have worked hard to become a teacher, or at least to work in the education field. I have a passion for working with individuals to help them achieve their greatest potential in the now, as well as, long term. I have my credential in k-8th with single subject specialties, my Masters in Education, and no job to validate all the education and time I have put into this field. However, I still love being around kids, and interacting with adults who want to better their lives with education. I seem to keep running into dead ends. I also am wondering if this is still my passion. Maybe this move up to Oregon is to show me that there is something out there that will fulfill me more that what I could have expected or wanted in the education field. Earlier on I wrote about looking into Occupational Therapy, and I am starting to think (rationally or irrationally) that this may be a direction I should dig deeper into, to see if there is something in this field that is meant specifically for me. Regardless of what direction I go, I pray that I am seeking God continually to allow for me to end up where He needs me. Prayers are appreciated for this as well!
JOY: Is seeing my cousin get married to her fiancé/now husband! And in return be able to see most of my family that I have not seen in three months or more likely years! I am joyful that I was able to sit and catch up with my Cousins, my Aunts, my Brother, and my Mom, Jay, Kim, and Jason. Nothing is more satisfying then being able to catch up on life with those you love. God provides even in the midst of stress and an overwhelming feeling of deadlines to make something like a wedding and gathering of people from all over the United States come inline to make it a joyful event. On another note, Chau was told by his managers that they are looking to start him on the manager track and have asked him to take the test this Friday to get him started in the right direction. All this to say we are still sorting out our thoughts about this, but definitely feel thankful that he is being recognized for his hard work and dedication to the job. In fact he was just surprised with an award and pin for his 5 years of service with the company yesterday.
EXHAUSTION: After all I have been apart of and the sense of not knowing what direction I am headed, I am feeling exhausted emotionally. Yet I know that there is more to come, both the good and the bad. I also know that I have much to learn about being content with the "right now" instead of trying to steal a glance at God's future for me. This has been a tough lesson for a planner like me... yet I know that God created me to be me, and that there is definitely a fulfilling career for me out there, I just have more adventures to partake in before I get there.
I hope you all have a wonderful 4th of July! We will be watching the Music Man and The Sandlot as our tradition stands!
As of now I have to say that the last two weeks have been filled with stress, joy and exhaustion. I loved being apart of my Cousin's wedding party, celebrating with her the new commitment she has been preparing for (for well over a year) finally come to fruition! Seeing my loving family and getting precious time after years of business, to sit down and spend it talking and updating.
JOY: Is seeing my cousin get married to her fiancé/now husband! And in return be able to see most of my family that I have not seen in three months or more likely years! I am joyful that I was able to sit and catch up with my Cousins, my Aunts, my Brother, and my Mom, Jay, Kim, and Jason. Nothing is more satisfying then being able to catch up on life with those you love. God provides even in the midst of stress and an overwhelming feeling of deadlines to make something like a wedding and gathering of people from all over the United States come inline to make it a joyful event. On another note, Chau was told by his managers that they are looking to start him on the manager track and have asked him to take the test this Friday to get him started in the right direction. All this to say we are still sorting out our thoughts about this, but definitely feel thankful that he is being recognized for his hard work and dedication to the job. In fact he was just surprised with an award and pin for his 5 years of service with the company yesterday. EXHAUSTION: After all I have been apart of and the sense of not knowing what direction I am headed, I am feeling exhausted emotionally. Yet I know that there is more to come, both the good and the bad. I also know that I have much to learn about being content with the "right now" instead of trying to steal a glance at God's future for me. This has been a tough lesson for a planner like me... yet I know that God created me to be me, and that there is definitely a fulfilling career for me out there, I just have more adventures to partake in before I get there.
I hope you all have a wonderful 4th of July! We will be watching the Music Man and The Sandlot as our tradition stands!
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Moving Forward
Over the past two weeks I have helped celebrate/prepare for the beginning of an upcoming Marriage, celebrated our third anniversary:), had three interviews (two with one company, and one with a new prospective job, been cleared for teaching/ substituting up here (finally), met new friends, grieved for an old friend who passed away suddenly, celebrated birthdays, and have most recently gone through a remodel at Starbucks, AND received a call back for a second/third interview for a full time position for which I am really hoping. Needless to say, I have been a bit busy with change. Chau has also had his run in with change and moving forward. He has been assigned a work route that is conveniently not too far from our neighborhood and is enjoying the short commute!Although this time has been challenging up here, with out two full time jobs, and the adjustment to the way of life in Oregon, it now feels as if things are falling into place. I still have to wait to see where I will be working full time, but I am seeing things move forward, which has a weird way of settling my spirit and boosting my hope. Even though there are still irritations and disappointments, it becomes less despairing when I feel like change is coming. It seems as though God's timing, his pathways and lessons are continually preparing the way to help us adapt and move in the right direction daily.
If you would, please pray for my third interview coming up at an unknown (hopefully near) date. I am really excited for this opportunity to work for a company whose main goal is to encourage and help guide students to their goal of graduating. I am looking forward to the possibility of having some type of job stability and routine up here:). On another note, this weekend, in celebration of our three years together, we are taking a train tour for the day of Hood River and Mt. Hood. We feel so blessed and are excited to explore more of this beautiful environment in which we live!
Saturday, May 25, 2013
The rain has arrived...
It seems as though so much can change in a short amount of time, however, that short amount of time can seem like it lasts months. Chau and I have been learning what it means to wait, in all aspects of the word. We have seen the depth of what it means to live for God and not by the standards of this world, to lean on our community and have hope in things not yet seen. In general, as a person, you want to say that the tough times (where you have no control), are the worst and you would not wish it on anyone. I have come to understand that these tough times are what really makes people learn what it means to be real, to learn, to grow in compassion and empathy. When God calls us to live life with others, where we cry, laugh, experience joy and pain, I believe without experiencing the depth of these emotions, we cannot authentically unite with our brothers and sisters with the same perspective.
I know that Chau and I individually have grown up differently, with different life experiences, however, going through a major life change together, where it calls us to fully trust in God and his timing, helps us to grow both individually and as one. I have learned so much from him and his life growing up, which has began to open up my perspective to better empathize with his emotions and way of living (I would not have had this experience with out these tough times of waiting). I have also seen how community has helped me in my greatest time of need, feeling now somewhat isolated from my friends and family at home and going through yet another year with out my dad.
All of this waiting has felt like a rain storm where things seem to continually fall, with out a way to stop it, but trusting in God's promises and to know that the rain will subside and at the end a beautiful rainbow, along with the endless variety of living things (including us) that have benefited from the much needed rain. With out rain (provided by God) life would suffer, (life dependent on Gods provision). Without the tough times, we would not realize the depth of how we need and depend on God and his perfect timing. Overall, we feel blessed and see God's hand in each chapter, each moment of uncertainty and are grateful for all of your support and prayers. God is using you in our lives in great ways!
~More soon to come...
I know that Chau and I individually have grown up differently, with different life experiences, however, going through a major life change together, where it calls us to fully trust in God and his timing, helps us to grow both individually and as one. I have learned so much from him and his life growing up, which has began to open up my perspective to better empathize with his emotions and way of living (I would not have had this experience with out these tough times of waiting). I have also seen how community has helped me in my greatest time of need, feeling now somewhat isolated from my friends and family at home and going through yet another year with out my dad.
All of this waiting has felt like a rain storm where things seem to continually fall, with out a way to stop it, but trusting in God's promises and to know that the rain will subside and at the end a beautiful rainbow, along with the endless variety of living things (including us) that have benefited from the much needed rain. With out rain (provided by God) life would suffer, (life dependent on Gods provision). Without the tough times, we would not realize the depth of how we need and depend on God and his perfect timing. Overall, we feel blessed and see God's hand in each chapter, each moment of uncertainty and are grateful for all of your support and prayers. God is using you in our lives in great ways!
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Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Settling in...
Last week was a full week full of fun and new beginnings. On my birthday, Chau surprised me with dinner in downtown Portland, at Deschutes Brewery (below) where my cousin Carrie, her fiancé Andrew, their friend Mike and my friends Quint and Dacia were waiting to celebrate with me. I had no idea, but loved that they all drove out to spend time wishing me a happy birthday! It was nice to have a group up here (which I was not thinking would be happening on a weeknight, and for the amount of time we have been here) for this year's birthday. I definitely felt special:).
Since my birthday I have worked everyday. The people I work with have been super nice and have welcomed me. I enjoy working again and I have to say that I feel that Chau (Bella) and I are settling in well. We still have our challenges, but for the most part we are learning more than ever, that the important things in life are worth the challenge. Also, by going through the tough times, the value of what we are working hard for becomes priceless due to the lessons, bonding and faith that is caused by the hard times.
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
Birthday Week!
I am going to try to update this blog more often, it has been a bit mundane with out working...but as of last week, I was offered two different jobs, one with Beaverton School District, as a substitute and one at Starbucks. I have officially started to work in Oregon as of today! God is good and faithful. This week is also my birthday and I have been enjoying the sunny spring weather with cool breezes and long sunshiny days!
This past weekend Chau and I took Bella to Seaside Beach (about an hour and a half away), where we ended up taking Bella to the water and she LOVED it! Luckily we found a retractible leash on sale a few days before our trip because she took off toward the water like she was returning home. I never knew how much joy that could bring me. She took to it well and started jumping over the waves coming at her, and then would bite at it deeper and deeper until the leash slack ran out. Here is a picture...
This past weekend Chau and I took Bella to Seaside Beach (about an hour and a half away), where we ended up taking Bella to the water and she LOVED it! Luckily we found a retractible leash on sale a few days before our trip because she took off toward the water like she was returning home. I never knew how much joy that could bring me. She took to it well and started jumping over the waves coming at her, and then would bite at it deeper and deeper until the leash slack ran out. Here is a picture...
We had such a great day, and Bella definitely found her favorite place. Later on we checked out a couple other places and went to meet up with some friends at another beach about 10 minutes away to have dinner and let Bella run into the ocean once again. We had a blast and really enjoyed adventuring around on the coast. Sunday was a day of relaxing, the weather was amazing again, and we ended up doing nothing. Bella, after her water escapades, was beat and would not even get up to go on a walk. Don't worry, she has fully recovered.
I look forward to this week, yesterday it was 86 degrees... and it doesn't look like it will cool down any time soon (I thought we moved to a cooler/ rainy climate). Today I have off to enjoy my birthday and then continue on with working up here and feeling like things are headed back to normal. I feel good about life and am looking forward to what is to come! Please feel free to comment or ask questions, as I continue to update more often, I would like to hear from all of you!
Friday, April 26, 2013
The Little Things
In the midst of trying to figure life out up here, with the ups and downs of expectations and hopes hanging in the balance, including waiting for more than two months to hear about what I may be doing up here for work. God has been present. Since my last post, I have seen continual messages and posts about trusting God with out allowing the emotions or circumstances affect your reliance upon Him. I think he is trying to tell me something.
One of the best things I have learned these last few weeks came from a devotion I read about perspective. It talked about how we can either let our problems, planning or expectations control our perspective and distract us from our connection and reliance upon God, or we can stop thinking about what we want and look to God for his perspective. If we do this we can focus on trusting God instead of focusing on providing for ourselves.
I am happy to say once I realized that stressing or not knowing about what was going to happen next wasn't getting me anywhere but stressed and restless. I began to make it a goal to stop my reactions and start to be grateful for all that God has given me and all that He has planned. Almost instantly, things started to fall into place. Two weeks ago I received an email inviting me to interview for a school district near our house. I then went to the interview, and I thought it went really well, but you never know. Preparing for it reminded me why I love to teach and got me excited to potentially have this opportunity. During the interview I was asked if I would like to be considered for a full time position with the school district if one should open up. I felt so blessed. I do realize that this would be a slight chance...as is everything with education currently, and also, that I at this point had no idea if I would even be a sub, but I still had hope and was thankful for the opportunity.
This last Monday, I was called for an interview with Starbucks. I went the following day, and feel it went okay and will be hearing back about their decision this upcoming Monday. Later that day I opened my email and found out that I was selected to become a sub for the school district I applied to! I am so excited about this and hope this will lead to a permanent position... needless to say, when I focused my energy and emotions on being thankful, (that I serve and am loved by a God that protects his children, and provides in ways we can not imagine) before considering what I need to do, He supplies the desires of my heart. In the midst of waiting (even now) I can see the treasure of getting to know Him more is priceless and even though I have encountered struggles in this new season, I would not ask to experience this new journey any other way.
Thursday, April 18, 2013
Little by Little...
Update time...
So far we have had a total of maybe 4 days of rain since we have been here...kinda ironic, but the weather has been beautiful in all of it's changes. We have been able to discover more of the city we live in, with lots of fun coffee shops and pubs. We also checked out another church last weekend, that we liked a lot, although it's across town. We found out that the pastor and a few of the other attendees went to school in San Dimas down the street from Newsong at Life Pacific and/or grew up in SoCal right down the freeway from us. Such a small world! We will be visiting that church this weekend too.
Bella has continued to make friends with the neighbors and has been playing Romeo and Juliette on our balcony with the dog on the first floor across the lawn. As well as, when we take walks, with the dog across the courtyard... and the two dogs down the way from us... Let's just say she is quite a social butterfly.
Chau is doing well at his branch, and recently passed the licensing exam to continue his level of work up here. The branch manager seems to think highly of Chau and has made
sure he is on track to succeed here. As for me, I am still looking for jobs, and recently had an interview! I should be hearing about the outcome sometime next week. If not this job, then I am faithful that something will turn up soon! In the meantime, I am continuing to settle in and organize our space, along with walking our social butterfly and enjoying our surroundings.
One thing I have come to learn during this time is that by stepping out in faith, you never know where or when you are going to stand on solid ground. Faith does not guarantee feeling comfortable, but it does
guarantee God's peace. I have definitely had moments of uncertainty from time to time, but the foundation of faith is to trust God daily. Everyday, I have been reminded that in order to have faith, you have to continually rely on God, despite how you feel at the moment or the challenges you are introduced to (may seem obvious, but can be easily overlooked when too busy, or caught up in life). Things may happen or not come to you in the way you expect, but God will always provide. Lately, I have felt that I was wandering in the desert, much like that of the Israelites, not sure where they were headed, but certain they were where God called them.
I take this time wandering as a gift, to really take in my surroundings, to really appreciate and discover the depth of the love God has so graciously offered to me despite my flaws of being easily distracted, not being available and my immaturity in my walk with Him. This time away from familiar and comfortable surroundings has exemplified the amount of grace and peace that God provides. Exodus 16:14-20 talks about how God provides for the israelites in a way they have not seen before, in a specific way that would fulfill their needs of food for the day. Notice it is for the day not for the full 40 days they were wandering in the desert. He wants to be called on and engaged daily. He wants us to rely on Him. God is present and purposeful in how he makes himself available. All we need to do is come to him daily with our thoughts, feelings and needs. He provides in the best way possible for us. We just need to come to Him (Philipians 4:6-7, 19).
I recently read a quote in a book that reminded me about how Love should be. I believe it speaks to how God models to us how we should love one another. "Love is expressed unequivocally in...the availability offered. The assurance that each will be there for the other when needed, when expected, when desired, is the confidence of being loved."-David Augsburger. God offers this daily, second by second. He sees all and knows all, yet he still takes the time and is there for us despite how we react or our level of willingness to receive from Him his affections. Do we live out love this way? Do we expect this from God? Do we even value this affection from God? What a revelation it is to realize that God loves us with such a passion that he not only desires our attention, but that He undoubtably provides for us on a daily basis in a way that is best for each one of us individually, so we can have the confidence that he loves us. All He wants from us is our reliance on Him.
I know that this is a daily struggle, and I am trying to practice and live out what God desires. I feel so blessed despite the uncomfortable feeling of not knowing when or where I will work, or what Chau and my life will look like up here, but then again I am reminded that this time and uncomfortableness is a necessary ingredient for us to be reliant upon God and his desires for us to be continually looking to Him with our needs, desires and uncertainties.
More updates soon- and hopefully more pictures!
So far we have had a total of maybe 4 days of rain since we have been here...kinda ironic, but the weather has been beautiful in all of it's changes. We have been able to discover more of the city we live in, with lots of fun coffee shops and pubs. We also checked out another church last weekend, that we liked a lot, although it's across town. We found out that the pastor and a few of the other attendees went to school in San Dimas down the street from Newsong at Life Pacific and/or grew up in SoCal right down the freeway from us. Such a small world! We will be visiting that church this weekend too.Bella has continued to make friends with the neighbors and has been playing Romeo and Juliette on our balcony with the dog on the first floor across the lawn. As well as, when we take walks, with the dog across the courtyard... and the two dogs down the way from us... Let's just say she is quite a social butterfly.
Chau is doing well at his branch, and recently passed the licensing exam to continue his level of work up here. The branch manager seems to think highly of Chau and has made sure he is on track to succeed here. As for me, I am still looking for jobs, and recently had an interview! I should be hearing about the outcome sometime next week. If not this job, then I am faithful that something will turn up soon! In the meantime, I am continuing to settle in and organize our space, along with walking our social butterfly and enjoying our surroundings.
One thing I have come to learn during this time is that by stepping out in faith, you never know where or when you are going to stand on solid ground. Faith does not guarantee feeling comfortable, but it does
guarantee God's peace. I have definitely had moments of uncertainty from time to time, but the foundation of faith is to trust God daily. Everyday, I have been reminded that in order to have faith, you have to continually rely on God, despite how you feel at the moment or the challenges you are introduced to (may seem obvious, but can be easily overlooked when too busy, or caught up in life). Things may happen or not come to you in the way you expect, but God will always provide. Lately, I have felt that I was wandering in the desert, much like that of the Israelites, not sure where they were headed, but certain they were where God called them.
I take this time wandering as a gift, to really take in my surroundings, to really appreciate and discover the depth of the love God has so graciously offered to me despite my flaws of being easily distracted, not being available and my immaturity in my walk with Him. This time away from familiar and comfortable surroundings has exemplified the amount of grace and peace that God provides. Exodus 16:14-20 talks about how God provides for the israelites in a way they have not seen before, in a specific way that would fulfill their needs of food for the day. Notice it is for the day not for the full 40 days they were wandering in the desert. He wants to be called on and engaged daily. He wants us to rely on Him. God is present and purposeful in how he makes himself available. All we need to do is come to him daily with our thoughts, feelings and needs. He provides in the best way possible for us. We just need to come to Him (Philipians 4:6-7, 19).I recently read a quote in a book that reminded me about how Love should be. I believe it speaks to how God models to us how we should love one another. "Love is expressed unequivocally in...the availability offered. The assurance that each will be there for the other when needed, when expected, when desired, is the confidence of being loved."-David Augsburger. God offers this daily, second by second. He sees all and knows all, yet he still takes the time and is there for us despite how we react or our level of willingness to receive from Him his affections. Do we live out love this way? Do we expect this from God? Do we even value this affection from God? What a revelation it is to realize that God loves us with such a passion that he not only desires our attention, but that He undoubtably provides for us on a daily basis in a way that is best for each one of us individually, so we can have the confidence that he loves us. All He wants from us is our reliance on Him.
I know that this is a daily struggle, and I am trying to practice and live out what God desires. I feel so blessed despite the uncomfortable feeling of not knowing when or where I will work, or what Chau and my life will look like up here, but then again I am reminded that this time and uncomfortableness is a necessary ingredient for us to be reliant upon God and his desires for us to be continually looking to Him with our needs, desires and uncertainties.
More updates soon- and hopefully more pictures!
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
Twists and turns
Hey everyone!
Time has flown, it has been a very busy time since we arrived with unpacking, resting and trying to understand the process in which God has started within both Chau's and my life. Its been a bit of a roller coaster- now being up here and determining what our life will be once we are settled.
We arrived in Lake Oswego, Oregon around 11pm Friday night (close to two weeks ago), after nearly an 11 hour drive up from Roseville, CA. Some good friends of ours provided us with their house to stay the night after the first 6 hours of driving. God is faithful and helped us to remain safe during both extremely long drives through California, and then Oregon. I am not sure how we drove the whole stretch in one day last time... Chau had one of his good friends drive up with him to keep him company, who was also stoked to see the Autzen Stadium in Eugene, on the way up. I had Miss Bella with me in my passenger seat, and she was excited to look outside the window and sleep in between. I must say she was a great co-pilot, but there were definitelytimes when I deeply envied her ability to sleep a long the way. 
Due to the amount of hours we needed to cover, and the lateness of our estimated arrival, we were able to arrange to have the management provide a way for us to access our apartment after their office closed (this was not an option before). We were so grateful that this was now a possibility and upon our arrival, we discovered that they had placed a gift bag for Bella and some items for us as well, to welcome us home! Once we settled in for the night, it hit us how exhausted we were and how we had really wanted to sleep 4 hours earlier, so sleeping with out much of a bed was not a problem for any of us. The next morning we had our POD arriving (so we needed as much sleep as possible) with all of our furniture and belongings. Luckily, we were able to reserve a few parking spots for the POD to be positioned some what close to our apartment, although far enough a way to be a challenging workout.
Chau and I had a week off together before he returned to work this past Monday. We have so enjoyed spending time going through our many boxes and seeing all the memories we have made through out our lives apart, and together. We have decorated (my favorite thing to do!) somewhat, still a lot more to go... (don't worry I will post pictures when all is looking more put together), organized (Chau's favorite thing to do...) and spent time dreaming and exploring life up here. Last week, I have to admit we spent a lot of time catching up on sleep and movie watching- we weren't super efficient on the whole unpacking idea...big surprise right...- Anyway, we loved enjoying our new place, our tv, and time to relax before reality would hit.
Last Friday, we visited my cousin (so fun to have family up here) and went to see Oz the Great and Powerful in a small St. Johns theater, where we ate Pizza and watched the movie:). It's the simple things that make it so fun up here like eating dinner, while watching a movie in a small hoakie theater, for less then 10 bucks! Chau and I look forward to discovering more simple joys up here. Saturday, we explored our surroundings a bit more, and went thrift store shopping for a few items, but ended up empty handed...however, we continued our new fascination with the Fred Meyer grocery stores. These places have a starbucks, home goods section, electronics, clothing, kids section, and more going on and on and on...like Walmart or Target, but so much better, cheaper and more organized. I think we have been there close to 10 times in the last week and a half...AND there is no sales tax in Oregon, so we think we are winning all the time when we shop! :) (we realize taxes are paid, just in other ways here). Sunday, we attended Easter Service at a church in Lake Oswego, and enjoyed it. I believe we will return this Sunday to check it out again. After the service, we went over to our friends, Dacia and Quint's house to have Easter Lunch. This was such a blessing and has really helped to make us feel supported up here. Not only have they helped us move, but they have openly offered to help further, lend us anything we need that they have, and now made us a meal, and gave us a gift to help us in our exploration of Oregon. Our hearts are filled and again, we are so grateful. We realize this is not by chance and we thank you all for your prayers and thoughts in our journey, I know that all we have experienced, or have been shielded from has been encouraged by your faithfulness in God, and your tender hearts toward us in this new and somewhat challenging chapter for us.Some prayer requests: Chau just started his job at the branch up here, and has had a great experience with his coworkers, feeling supported and encouraged, but at the same time, challenged in what his role up here will be in the long run. There has already been some unexpected feelings of discouragement and reflections on where he is currently, with an impatience and frustration with what he would like to be doing, and where he would like to be career wise. Despite that he is dedicated and determined to make it work. In reflection, I am feeling so blessed by him, that he is willing to sacrifice the time to support both of us in the move up here, and for the time I am unemployed. So please pray for encouragement, clarity and inspiration for him, as well as, peace and insight for me to best support him through out this time.
For me: I need a job. I have been applying continually and have heard little. A lot of the postings have still remained open weeks from when I applied. They are all listed as: still in progress. So, since we will need more income, I have looked at retail/any job as well, in the mean time. I would love a job that would fit me and what I love:). But I am also open to what works to make ends meet. Randomly, I have also recently been inspired through conversation, to consider looking into Occupational Therapy schools to go back and get a degree, but we will see, it definitely sounds like something that would fit me and be something that I would thoroughly enjoy. God definitely has an interesting way of supplying inklings that support the twists and turns of our lives...if nothing else allows us to think outside our box of living life our way."Do not be anxious about anything..." is a verse and concept that has definitely hit the depths of my heart during this move and currently in my search for work. I have been continuously reminded that God is in control, and this time is a time for transformation for me. No control, no way of planning and only reliance on His plan for Chau and me. I have faith, but am constantly tempted to freak out a little (or a lot). Please pray for Chau and me to not allow our current circumstances to blind us from the blessings and provision God has given.
Thank you all again for coming with us on this journey, and patiently waiting to read our updates, we truly appreciate your prayers and your desire to live life alongside us as much as you can!More sooner than later....
~ Jess
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
Progress...
Since we introduced our worlds to this blog, we have been showered with love, support and encouragement. I thank each of you who have been there for us through this exciting, yet difficult and scary process. We are now two days away from our departure up to Oregon, and I am currently sitting at a Barnes and Nobel resisting buying more books- {I have a problem...:)} and using their internet, since we had to cancel our service early last week, (thus the delay in the posts, this one will be short). We have also been showered with invitations to connect before the move and were thrown a going away party to see friends from near and far one last time. We have thoroughly appreciated all the heartfelt connections and prayer warriors out there for encouraging us to move on the path that God has prepared for us. Joshua 1:9 has become our verse for this journey and has given us peace in the midst of our nervousness.
Backtrack- March 8th, my last day of work, I enjoyed thoroughly, eating breakfast with a great friend, seeing and being able to say goodbye to my co-workers, (who I miss!) celebrating a friend with a baby shower and connecting with the new friends I made through APU. I was sad, but encouraged by all who I shared with, about our decision. God is good in his timing, and blessed me immensely by providing that job!
Second week- Packing, packing, packing!!!! Our Pod arrived and I was the only on off of work! Oh and weather was nice and HOT... Fun times in that, baking in that POD....:(. All that week and the next Chau and I were sorting and packing to make sure we had all we needed and donated all we didn't. Thursday was a really long day and night, and all this to say our POD was picked up last week Friday. Packed from floor to ceiling and back to front. We are glad that is over!
This week we are finishing up with packing what we need with us, we have since spent time with family and friends, (yesterday at Disneyland!) as much as we can to soak it all up before the distance.
We love you all and are looking forward to your visits! (hint....hint)
I will most likely be posting more in a couple weeks, feel free to comment :) I really like this blogging!
Backtrack- March 8th, my last day of work, I enjoyed thoroughly, eating breakfast with a great friend, seeing and being able to say goodbye to my co-workers, (who I miss!) celebrating a friend with a baby shower and connecting with the new friends I made through APU. I was sad, but encouraged by all who I shared with, about our decision. God is good in his timing, and blessed me immensely by providing that job!
Second week- Packing, packing, packing!!!! Our Pod arrived and I was the only on off of work! Oh and weather was nice and HOT... Fun times in that, baking in that POD....:(. All that week and the next Chau and I were sorting and packing to make sure we had all we needed and donated all we didn't. Thursday was a really long day and night, and all this to say our POD was picked up last week Friday. Packed from floor to ceiling and back to front. We are glad that is over!
This week we are finishing up with packing what we need with us, we have since spent time with family and friends, (yesterday at Disneyland!) as much as we can to soak it all up before the distance.
We love you all and are looking forward to your visits! (hint....hint)
I will most likely be posting more in a couple weeks, feel free to comment :) I really like this blogging!
Sunday, March 3, 2013
The start of it all...
Life is surprising, I am sure this is not a shocking concept, however, it continues to keep me on my toes. In every nook and crany of the past 5 years, I could have never foresaw us moving to Portland, Oregon. But then again, I could not have seen us meeting 4 years prior to dating, becoming good friends and then end up very hapily married. God is good and I have never felt so blessed to be living life with Chau, and our puppy Bella. There may have been some curve balls thrown at us and our families, but I feel that despite the downs, God has been faithful.
JANUARY- (through July)
So let's backtrack the last year of our lives to the point when Chau and I had a moment of clarity, that maybe God was trying to show us something other than what we were looking at; something that we were trying to make work on a daily basis. Exhausted and becoming more and more burned out, we decided that we needed a change. We were working on opposite schedules, myself feeling taken advantage of by being held to the evening schedule in the position I was in, but on the other hand loving working with students who needed guidance and encouragement. None the less, still unsupported and disrespected at work. I was looking for other options nightly. As a result, Chau and I were unable to see each other except to say good morning, and good night until the weekend, where we were still on different sleeping schedules. We felt like glorified and well matched roommates. Let's just say life was not ideal.
JULY-
Shortly after coming to the conclusion that there needed to be a change, we started looking for a house to buy. After searching for about a month, we found our dream house. It had a porch,( I realize this may not be a big deal to everyone, but it was huge to us!) we were dreaming about it and the rest of the house daily.... and well....nightly too. We were in love. Many visits to see what we could imagine about how our lives would be there. Then we took the next step...finding a realtor who could show us the inside of the house, which sealed the deal for us. We signed and practically gave the guy what he asked for the house- we were stoked! It was a done deal...or so we thought. Turns out the owner withdrew the house. Needless to say we were heartbroken and it became clear that God was trying to get our attention. Who, after receiving the offer they ask for pulls the house from the market?
AUGUST-
Two weeks after the house incident, I was laid off (with not even a day's notice). We didn't see that coming...
Thank God for his provisions even in the midst of heartbreak he knows how to provide to prevent us from more distress. What my job did not know at the time was I had already interviewed for another job, and had my second interview with APU the day after I was laid off. I thought all was well, I had peace in my heart and was grateful that God prevented us from turmoil with only having one solid job, and no major mortgage payment, but felt that I would get this job at APU. One week passed. Two weeks, then three...no word from APU.
SEPTEMBER-(through Present)
Then the day came, I did not get the job. However, APU wanted to know if I would be interested in a Temp position. 6 months with no guarantee or benefits. I took it.
I have greatly enjoyed and have been blessed by this job. I have made many new friends who pray for me and Chau, who love and accept us. I have learned new valuable skills and have felt like I have grown, spiritually and emotionally. Even though I have been experiencing such Joy working for APU, I consistently felt uneasy, not knowing if I would be staying or having to find another job. Chau and I regrouped one night, feeling uncomfortable with where we were in life. Happy that we were now on the same schedule, but not quite living the life we wanted. We were not as drained, but felt we should be loving life. Isn't that what God wants for us? To live Life fully alive, in Him, with our gifts reflecting Him?
November-
I asked Chau if we could start to think about what would make this a possibility, we thought, well maybe not living so far from work, driving in traffic each day. So we looked at apartments, town homes, houses. Loved some, but not the price of rent. Then I said, Let's look out of state, just for fun. Right away we saw a very cute house for rent 3 bedroom 2 bath Craftsman for less than what we could find here. Others, were not that far off as well. Looking back at our first place (1 bedroom/1bath) the rent was about the same. Looking for apartments now closer to work was 1100 upward for 1bedroom/ 1bath. So moving out of state became more appealing. Our whole aim was to enjoy life more, not work to live at a minimum.
Being that we have an amazing group of friends and a priceless community, as well as, loving families, we had a hard time imagining leaving them and moving away. Chau has been with the same friends since high school, and it would be like separating brothers if we left. I too have had such rich friendships and am still having a very difficult time thinking about not living in the same area as them.
Regardless, I asked him to think about possibly moving out of state, and just sleep on it. Why I felt so eager to explore other options, I can not explain. I had asked Chau a month earlier on a scale from 1-10, how he felt about moving, his answer was a 6...which doesn't indicate much either way. I guess we were both curious, but not willing to admit it.
DECEMBER-
The night after we had our out of state home searching experience online and saw that there were other options that we could explore, we both slept on it, prayed and went on with our daily tasks and duties.
8 am Monday morning I received a call from Chau. "We should do it, I have prayed and I feel like God is pulling us that direction for a reason. I have never felt like this and I know this is what we need to do." Answering the phone to a phrase like "We should do it, I have prayed...etc." Left me spinning on what in the world he could be talking about... you see I am a night owl, mornings take a little encouragement and a lot of coffee for me to catch on to topics. Once I caught up with Chau and what he was talking about, I felt an overwhelming excitement and peace. The decision was made right then and there. We were starting a new adventure, another chapter in our life and our journey striving to follow God's gentle voice leading and nudging us to a place we have yet to discover.
This was the start of an amazing journey, one that has already taught us about Love, Life and God's Blessings through the Unknown...
JANUARY- (through July)
So let's backtrack the last year of our lives to the point when Chau and I had a moment of clarity, that maybe God was trying to show us something other than what we were looking at; something that we were trying to make work on a daily basis. Exhausted and becoming more and more burned out, we decided that we needed a change. We were working on opposite schedules, myself feeling taken advantage of by being held to the evening schedule in the position I was in, but on the other hand loving working with students who needed guidance and encouragement. None the less, still unsupported and disrespected at work. I was looking for other options nightly. As a result, Chau and I were unable to see each other except to say good morning, and good night until the weekend, where we were still on different sleeping schedules. We felt like glorified and well matched roommates. Let's just say life was not ideal.
JULY-
Shortly after coming to the conclusion that there needed to be a change, we started looking for a house to buy. After searching for about a month, we found our dream house. It had a porch,( I realize this may not be a big deal to everyone, but it was huge to us!) we were dreaming about it and the rest of the house daily.... and well....nightly too. We were in love. Many visits to see what we could imagine about how our lives would be there. Then we took the next step...finding a realtor who could show us the inside of the house, which sealed the deal for us. We signed and practically gave the guy what he asked for the house- we were stoked! It was a done deal...or so we thought. Turns out the owner withdrew the house. Needless to say we were heartbroken and it became clear that God was trying to get our attention. Who, after receiving the offer they ask for pulls the house from the market?
AUGUST-
Two weeks after the house incident, I was laid off (with not even a day's notice). We didn't see that coming...
Thank God for his provisions even in the midst of heartbreak he knows how to provide to prevent us from more distress. What my job did not know at the time was I had already interviewed for another job, and had my second interview with APU the day after I was laid off. I thought all was well, I had peace in my heart and was grateful that God prevented us from turmoil with only having one solid job, and no major mortgage payment, but felt that I would get this job at APU. One week passed. Two weeks, then three...no word from APU.
SEPTEMBER-(through Present)
Then the day came, I did not get the job. However, APU wanted to know if I would be interested in a Temp position. 6 months with no guarantee or benefits. I took it.
I have greatly enjoyed and have been blessed by this job. I have made many new friends who pray for me and Chau, who love and accept us. I have learned new valuable skills and have felt like I have grown, spiritually and emotionally. Even though I have been experiencing such Joy working for APU, I consistently felt uneasy, not knowing if I would be staying or having to find another job. Chau and I regrouped one night, feeling uncomfortable with where we were in life. Happy that we were now on the same schedule, but not quite living the life we wanted. We were not as drained, but felt we should be loving life. Isn't that what God wants for us? To live Life fully alive, in Him, with our gifts reflecting Him?
November-
I asked Chau if we could start to think about what would make this a possibility, we thought, well maybe not living so far from work, driving in traffic each day. So we looked at apartments, town homes, houses. Loved some, but not the price of rent. Then I said, Let's look out of state, just for fun. Right away we saw a very cute house for rent 3 bedroom 2 bath Craftsman for less than what we could find here. Others, were not that far off as well. Looking back at our first place (1 bedroom/1bath) the rent was about the same. Looking for apartments now closer to work was 1100 upward for 1bedroom/ 1bath. So moving out of state became more appealing. Our whole aim was to enjoy life more, not work to live at a minimum.
Being that we have an amazing group of friends and a priceless community, as well as, loving families, we had a hard time imagining leaving them and moving away. Chau has been with the same friends since high school, and it would be like separating brothers if we left. I too have had such rich friendships and am still having a very difficult time thinking about not living in the same area as them.
Regardless, I asked him to think about possibly moving out of state, and just sleep on it. Why I felt so eager to explore other options, I can not explain. I had asked Chau a month earlier on a scale from 1-10, how he felt about moving, his answer was a 6...which doesn't indicate much either way. I guess we were both curious, but not willing to admit it.
DECEMBER-
The night after we had our out of state home searching experience online and saw that there were other options that we could explore, we both slept on it, prayed and went on with our daily tasks and duties.
8 am Monday morning I received a call from Chau. "We should do it, I have prayed and I feel like God is pulling us that direction for a reason. I have never felt like this and I know this is what we need to do." Answering the phone to a phrase like "We should do it, I have prayed...etc." Left me spinning on what in the world he could be talking about... you see I am a night owl, mornings take a little encouragement and a lot of coffee for me to catch on to topics. Once I caught up with Chau and what he was talking about, I felt an overwhelming excitement and peace. The decision was made right then and there. We were starting a new adventure, another chapter in our life and our journey striving to follow God's gentle voice leading and nudging us to a place we have yet to discover.
This was the start of an amazing journey, one that has already taught us about Love, Life and God's Blessings through the Unknown...
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